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[stares down at Lethe's face, then looks away for a moment to dispel the tension, taking a deep breath]

. . . I don't want to die before the people I care about. And you're all--

[flinches guiltily oops oops oops]

My lifespan is--normal.

But Yoohyun's isn't, is it?

In theory. He has a long lifespan. But he won't live that long.

...why not?

He won't live without me. He's said as much before.

[there's an undertone of exasperation to it]

It might sound dramatic coming from anyone but him. So I'd like to find a way to live at least...a hundred years would be okay. I don't want his life cut short because of me.

There you go, then.

If the road is there, or can be made, don't expect me not to pursue.

[huffs, quietly]

Stubborn. Can I tell you a secret?

Always.

[it's a response to both those things, really]

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I'd like you to live for a long, long time. As long as you can. Even though you're saying the same thing right now, it's just because you have a reason for doing so. You want to live long so that the people you care about won't be lonely, right? My reasons aren't that strong by a long shot. I love you. So I want you to live, and I don't want you to die. That's all there is to it.

It's always your choice in the end. But if you want to live, I'll do everything in my power to make it happen.

[MAKES A TINY NOISE LIKE HE'S BEEN PUNCHED]

[is that a good noise or a bad noise. he doesn't know.]

You can pretend I didn't say anything if that's easier.

...you know I can't do that.

I'm giving you the option anyways. Who knows, this might be the first time you decide you don't want to know something.

That wouldn't be fair to you.

...

You're an extaordinary person, Lethe, no matter how much you paint yourself otherwise.

It wasn't fair of me to spring that on you either. So we'd be even.

[ugh that gets a smile out of him though]

That's high praise coming from you.

[leans down and over a bit, brushing Lethe's hair from his brow with his hand so he can kiss it]

You give your heart, easy and open, and you mean it. That's rare.

I don't know when I'll be able to answer that...but I'll answer you someday soon, if that's all right. I beg your patience.

You don't have to--don't feel pressured. I mean it. Seriously. I didn't say it because I was expecting a reply. It was relevant to the topic, that's all. I know it's been...messy for you lately. The last thing I want to do is add to that.

[a slight quirk of his mouth]

Is it pressuring me if I wish to return a sincere sentiment with, at the very least, equal sincerity? That is just a given, I feel.

Though the consideration is kind. I do also ask for patience because of the...mess, as well.

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[his expression softens]

In that case, take all the time you need. I'll still be here whenever you're ready. Even if it takes a while.

...

Worry not.

I'm not going anywhere, either.

[his grip tightens a fraction around Charon, reassuring himself that's true]

I wasn't worried about that. I know you want to see things through as much as I do.

[makes a quiet affirmative noise and leans his cheek on the top of Lethe's head]

[...yeah, okay. melts into it]

Have you been taking it easy? I'm going to feel bad if I wake up and you're more stressed out.

It's fine. Bluebell ran a rite; I made some paper birds.

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