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Because of their need for dungeon resources to keep life manageable, you mean?

There is that. But on a more basic level, it's hard being different from other people.

[skill issue]

Ah.

You're afraid of ruining lives as the price for fixing short-term problems.

[Charon????]

Pretty much. I also don't want everyone being Awakened to cause more problems in the pasture, which it might. Our abilities are already dampened so I don't know if it would make a huge difference.

[sighs, soft and tired]

I'm just trying to think of something that would help.

[he's considered himself different from other people all his life ok. maybe not in as literal a way as Lethe means here but.

smooths a hand over the back of Lethe's head, down his nape and shoulder]

I was considering. Coming back around to asking you.

[Charon can feel Lethe's surprise, spine straightening as he sits up a little more]

Wh--Really? What made you think about it?

. . .

The prospect of longevity becomes much less horrifying, when one finds themselves in a situation with near-endless prospects, and everything to live for.

I still want to die, of course. But perhaps it would be good to not simply resign myself to the constraints that I was born with. If the circumstances have changed for the better, I would like . . . to change with them.

...Is that the only reason?

[he takes on the very distinct air of a cat who's been caught in the act of eating the ham sandwich you left on the counter and is now making direct eye contact while it decides what to do]

. . .

[makes direct eye contact and waits to see if Charon is going to say something first or if he has to]

. . .

[stares down at Lethe's face, then looks away for a moment to dispel the tension, taking a deep breath]

. . . I don't want to die before the people I care about. And you're all--

[flinches guiltily oops oops oops]

My lifespan is--normal.

But Yoohyun's isn't, is it?

In theory. He has a long lifespan. But he won't live that long.

...why not?

He won't live without me. He's said as much before.

[there's an undertone of exasperation to it]

It might sound dramatic coming from anyone but him. So I'd like to find a way to live at least...a hundred years would be okay. I don't want his life cut short because of me.

There you go, then.

If the road is there, or can be made, don't expect me not to pursue.

[huffs, quietly]

Stubborn. Can I tell you a secret?

Always.

[it's a response to both those things, really]

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I'd like you to live for a long, long time. As long as you can. Even though you're saying the same thing right now, it's just because you have a reason for doing so. You want to live long so that the people you care about won't be lonely, right? My reasons aren't that strong by a long shot. I love you. So I want you to live, and I don't want you to die. That's all there is to it.

It's always your choice in the end. But if you want to live, I'll do everything in my power to make it happen.

[MAKES A TINY NOISE LIKE HE'S BEEN PUNCHED]

[is that a good noise or a bad noise. he doesn't know.]

You can pretend I didn't say anything if that's easier.

...you know I can't do that.

I'm giving you the option anyways. Who knows, this might be the first time you decide you don't want to know something.

That wouldn't be fair to you.

...

You're an extaordinary person, Lethe, no matter how much you paint yourself otherwise.

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